With the Vedic psychology tools that you have introduced I am trying to work on my old samskaras, but I still have many old unprocessed emotions that are bothering me:
Being the child of an alcoholic parent is not an easy path as you are not given the space to learn about, acknowledge and process your own emotions. Emotions are so powerful. They drive your thoughts and behaviors, so it is very important to know your emotions and how to work with them. Your emotions could end up propelling you to get a Phd from Harvard or to being a homeless person living on the street. When you grow up with a parent who is an alcoholic, they love the alcohol more than you. Even if an alcoholic parent does not verbally or physically abuse you, because they are paying more attention to alcohol than you, they are neglecting you emotionally.
Actually, if the parent is a workaholic, this too creates the same effect on the child as that of an alcoholic parent. More specifically, it creates a very painful childhood because you learn that your father’s feelings are supreme and your feelings do not matter. In fact, if you express your feelings to your father, either you are ignored or he becomes angry. His feelings are unpredictable and scary. So you get the message that you should pay attention to his feelings and ignore your own. And over time you don’t even know your own feelings any longer, because you become so focused on his. Your whole personality develops as a way to get his love – you will do anything to get his love, since it is so scarce because 99% of his love is going to the alcohol.
So, eating meat, listening to his verbal abuse, forgetting about your own needs and feelings – all of these are ways in which we forget about our self in order to hopefully get just a tiny bit of his love. The samskara that gets created is exactly what your mother said, “I must adapt to others in order to be loved.” The way this plays out as an adult is that you will continually get into relationships that are co-dependent. Codependency is when your emotional wellbeing is dependent on another person’s feelings. You will ignore your own thoughts, feelings, needs in order to make your friend or partner happy, even if it is hurting you.
Your samskara is like a program driving you to behave in this way because you did so for so many years in relation with your father. In fact, when people ask you what you want, or how you feel, or what you think, you will feel uncomfortable because you were never asked these questions as a child. It was always about what dad feels. You have ignored yourself for so long now that you don’t even know how to answer these questions about your own self.
However, you are expert at answering these questions about the others whom you are in close relation with. If you have a partner, you will know in detail about their feelings, even a particular kind of face they make when they are about to get angry. You will know exactly what they like, and even if you hate it, or it hurts you, you will continue to do it anyway because that is what they like. You will know what they want and you will even hurt yourself financially or in other ways to give them what they want.
This all might seem good in one way, like qualities of a good devotee. However, there is one key difference between a good devotee and a co-dependent person. A good devotee is in a different state of mind – he or she is in a high state of love where they know their needs and feelings, but they have forgotten them because they have become absorbed in love for Sri Krishna. But they surely know their selves. They are not hurting themselves because they feel empty and are looking for a drop of love. The child of an alcoholic may seem devoted to their partner, but they are really not. They are actually just selfishly, desperately searching for that love that their father never gave them.
Tamasic action is always taken out of delusion – without considering the consequences of how you will harm yourself or others.
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Is it possible that my “humble service” simply display symptoms of an emotional dysfunction? That is, is it possible that my relationship with certain vaiṣṇavas may just be a codependence generated from a subjective transference? If so, should I seek psychological help from non-devotees professionals?
Yes, it is possible. You don’t necessarily need to seek psychological help however. You can purchase a book on co-dependence, such as “Co-Dependence No More,” by Melody Beattie. Or, you could join a Co-Dependency meeting to learn more about how your co-dependent behavior negatively effects your life, if at all. Here is a link to their site: http://coda.org/
Vedic Psychology is a wonderful topic as well as a practice of Bhakti (if comprehended). However, most of our conteporary teachings or advise comes from Spiritualists who either did not have their own family to sustain, or abondoned it in order to pursue their spiritual path.
I am very fond of Eastern schools of philosophy, however, has anyone who writes these post had any opportunity to apply these advises in practical context of western family ?
Otherwise, these advises are only mental phantoms without practical point of reference.
Yes, the Vedic Psychology concepts have been applied in Western families successfully. However, the main focus of Vedic Psychology is not to look at other people, and to ask theoretical questions – but to take these concepts and use them to look at your own mind.